[005] - Backdated to Saturday Oct 22nd

[rabuends]

[Voice; Filtered from Madoka Kaname 25%]

[She isn't good with filters yet. Sue her. But, she's sure like this Madoka won't see it.]

...I know someone from my world here. She's helped me a lot before I came here and she's a kind person. But, I don't want her to be here. Even if this place is somewhat better, I still don't think she should be here. There were other people from my world that were here, but now all of them are gone. Her and I are the only ones left, and I always hope that she will go back too. Is that wrong? To not want someone from your world to support you here?

[She lets out the breath she didn't know she was holding and continues. Her face still convey no real expression and she does her best to keep her tone steady and calm.]

I heard a lot of people have been leaving recently. It must be sad, to lose people close to you. ...I don't know how I would feel if she left. I don't even know how she would feel if I left. So when things like people leaving happen, I wonder "is it worth the trouble of even getting to know someone if they can be here one day and gone the next?" ...I still don't really know the answer. Maybe it's just that I haven't been here for a long time, compared to most people. Imposing my problems like this...

[...]

Excuse me, if any of this offended you. Maybe it was wrong to even say anything.

[Voice; Filtered to Madoka Kaname, 25%]

Madoka, can we meet sometime today?

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[Voice]

[mistlegacy]

[It takes her a moment to reply. This is a touchy issue for her, but sometimes it helps to sort it out via rambling.]

It's the same as in our homeworlds, though, isn't it? We never know when it will be the last time we'll see a friend or loved one. Sometimes, we don't even get to say goodbye. But...at least before then, you get to be with them.

I suppose you could close yourself off if you really want to, but that sounds a lonely way to live.

[Voice]

[chronica.livejournal.com]

[When the last time will be? She knows that feeling better than most think.]

Saying goodbye seems...too solid. I never really got a chance to say goodbye to those that I knew. Being lonely is just easier. [Especially with what she has to do.]

[Written]

[whatdeheckisdat]

[...That is quite a significant decrease in attitude problems, Homura.]

It is far from wrong. In fact, many residents ask if it is wrong to actually want someone from their world here.

As for whether or not getting to know a person is worth it, that is something you must decide for yourself. With the transient nature of Luceti, however, it would be unwise to let your happiness depend on whether or not something lasts.

[He's not saying you should act on spur-of-the-moment desires, but...]

You must take what happiness you can.

[Voice]

[chronica.livejournal.com]

I thought of that too - if it was selfish to want her here. I decided it is, because she told me she wants to go back home.

[Take the happiness you can...hm...]

Happiness here seems so little and fleeting. To seize it and have it snatched seems cruel.

[Voice]

[kamiyandisease.livejournal.com]

Huh... I guess you ended up finding your courage if you can talk properly like this.

Anyway... You were given a voice in this world for a reason, so don't be afraid to speak up for yourself. I haven't been here all the long either, but I know that I'm learning all sorts of things about people from other worlds. I might end up losing friends later on, but... I don't think bonds can be broken that easily.

[Voice]

[chronica.livejournal.com]

[Wha-- oh yeah.]

That time was because of the experiment. My apologies. I hope you don't have any misunderstandings because of that time.

No one remembers their time here when they return. I hear that some people have vague memories, but nothing concrete.

[Voice, Same filter]

[vulcanblazer.livejournal.com]

...I can understand what you're saying. Wanting to keep someone you know or care about safe from a universe like this isn't wrong. And hoping they leave and go back to where they belong isn't either. But the only thing I can ask is... how does she feel about it? Does she want to go back?

[There's a pause.]

...I lost a lot of people I've grown to care about here. Friends I met, even a strange sort of family I gathered. Even someone I...[Loved.] ...well. The point is, I've seen a lot of it over my two years here. And yeah, it hurts to lose them. It hurt a lot. But they're never entirely gone.

[Voice, Same filter]

[chronica.livejournal.com]

I already asked her a while ago. She told me that this place is nice and the people are too, but she wants to go back. She has family and friends home she has to return to. [And an apocalyptic witch that is approaching ever so slowly.]

When you say never entirely gone...do you mean in memories then?

[ voice; filtered ] not like I was bullied into this

[happyends]

Huh? [ She does seem a little genuinely surprised, but.. well, if Homura wants to meet up, why not? ]

Of course, Homura-chan! .. Is something wrong?

[ voice; filtered ] jelle...no rabu...

[chronica.livejournal.com]

Ah, no. I just wanted to talk about the current situation.

[What with them being the only two from their world, as far as they know.]

[Voice]

[floralphantasm.livejournal.com]

No no, there's nothing wrong with wanting such a thing at all~ Might I be of assistance? Of course I'll only be able to send her back for a week or so before she returns...

A welcome respite all the same though, yes~?

[Voice]

[chronica.livejournal.com]

[oh oops she forgot to put on the "big huge bitch" filter.]

No thank you.

[Voice]

[imperial-uncle.livejournal.com]

I have not been long here yet, but I do understand your feelings, I think. I do not wish any of the people that are close to me to end up in a place like this. I do miss them, but it is better for them not to arrive here. I would not want them to be possibly kidnapped or what other horrifying things have done to them.

I do think it is worth the trouble. Partings are often painful but I think making acquaintances or even friends is something very precious.

[Voice]

[chronica.livejournal.com]

Those are my thoughts too. I always worry if they will kidnap her or do terrible things to her. But, I can't tell her I worry. She would only become concerned too.

Even if they might be gone before your very eyes one day?

[Voice]

[bamfing]

I don't think it's wrong. I mean, I'm glad to have my friends from home here. But I'll be happy if they find a way back too. And I'd hope they'd feel the same way too.

[Voice]

[chronica.livejournal.com]

I'm sure they would. Luceti is nice, but it is still a lab cage. I couldn't understand why someone would want to be trapped here, but I do think some people feel that way. ...I guess it might be selfish to say that as well.

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[arcanaxxii.livejournal.com]

I guess, it depends on the person, whether they choose to get to know the other person again, but how I see it... Isn't it best to make the most of your situation? As long as you can create happy memories that outweigh the bad, I think it's more than worth it. But it's always a lot easier said than done.

I don't think you're wrong, though, because I think deep down everyone feels the same. It's scary to think that if they leave and should ever return, they won't remember you.

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[chronica.livejournal.com]

Even if I make happy memories, it seems almost pointless if the other person can't share those memories too. Even I won't remember those memories, if I am ever to leave here.

[She's made plenty of happy memories that only she can remember. She doesn't want to make more like that.]

But, even if someone doesn't remember you, that isn't any excuse to turn away from them.

[neverplaysfair]

If the reason you don't want her here is for her sake, what could be wrong about that?

[chronica.livejournal.com]

Because it's selfish. I don't expect you to understand why, but it is.

[Regardless of the way Luceti is, the world her and Madoka come from is much worse. More to fear and coming to an end.]

[makeitquick]

...Weren't you a lion?

[chronica.livejournal.com]

[Erk.]

That was an experiment.

/two people

[godbent]

...Wow, you really need my Brigade's help.

o//o

[chronica.livejournal.com]

Help from your brigade? I don't understand.

[Voice]

[mischiefbreeder]

...Yeah, I can understand where you're comin' from there. When I first got here, a bunch of my friends were here with me. But... Then they all went back home, one by one. It hurt, a lot... But I knew they were better off back there. I wouldn't wish this place on my worst enemies.

...And now most of 'em are back here, too. And it's great to see 'em all again! But...

[Voice]

[chronica.livejournal.com]

...You feel it's wrong to be glad to see them?

[Written]

[tsuntrader]

[...] Living at home is the same way, isn't it? You can meet someone and get to know them, then part ways and never see them again. You can still take something from meeting them for a little while, if you want.

There's not much else to do, either, so I guess it's a matter of how you want to make the most of your time here. Going home and forgetting about it doesn't matter until you actually go home.

[Voice]

[chronica.livejournal.com]

[Doesn't matter until you actually go home? ...Hm, he might be on to something.]

That seems like a reckless way to put it. That you don't need to even worry about it until later. ...But I suppose you make a good point with that.