If I said I was really okay, then.. I would probably be lying. [ if only Mami had just been alive back home, at least then she could have told herself 'it's better like this', but this is too much. ]
But.. I'm sure Mami-san wouldn't want me to be sad either, so..
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But.. I'm sure Mami-san wouldn't want me to be sad either, so..